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Monday, January 31, 2005
Mom Tale
Hey Everyone,
How are you all feeling tonight? I'm ok. Ok, so I'm not so ok. My body is hurting so much with arthritis and I can't tell what the change has been exactly. If it's because I gave up my bed for my wonderful mother-in-law, or because I'm out of pain pills? Regardless, I hurt and I'm sooo tired.
I'm not thrilled about my courses this semester. They are ones I don't have "set" assignments necessarily. I have to do a bunch of papers and research by the end of the semester, and that, for me is difficult. I need to discipline myself better.
Speaking of discipline, this morning my 10yr old ran up to me before school and said, "Mom, I forgot, could you sign this?" It was his report card he's had for a while. Needless to say, I was distraught at him waiting until Monday morning to show me his poor grades. I had to make my 14yr old cough up his card as well, and was even more sickened by the grades I saw on that one. Hubby and I are going to have a long talk with the boys tonight and come up with some serious discipline and reprimands. I hate being a mom sometimes. These times. It's not fun or easy!
My mother-in-law made biscuits and sausage gravy tonight for dinner. Yum! She's so good to us! She bought me a set of whisks for my kitchen. Mine were getting old and decrepid. My mother's birthday was this weekend and I wish I could have done more for her. BTW, I'm sure she would love for all of you to know she's 63 now! Hee hee, sorry Mom!
My husband has been having some "health issues" this week and went to urgent care tonight. It looks as though he's getting a colonoscopy next week. Poor dear! I hope and pray that it is nothing serious! Pray for us, will you?
On a positive note, my 14yr old had his hand looked at today and they said it looks like it's healing really well on its own so he won't require surgery! Yeah!!! That's one less surgery this month! Our 3yr old daughter is having surgery on Thursday to repair a rip in her palate. I hope this is the last in her series of surgeries. She's had more than her fair share of surgeries and procedures in her little lifetime!
It's Friday evening and all is well! Today I only had one class so I had to travel a total of 2 hrs for 45mins of class. It sometimes feels like a waste of gas money, but I understand why I must do it.
I have been suffering from a pain near my achilles heel today (along with all the wonderful other rheumatoid arthritis fun). This pain is particularly draining. I'm afraid I've complained too much to my husband and mother-in-law. I hate doing that, but it hurts!
I see my mother just started a blog today! She has been reading ours and decided that sounded interesting...so she jumped on the blog wagon! Welcome, Mom!
My mother-in-law was so busy baking and cooking today. We are so spoiled to have her staying with us for a few months. Although, I must admit I feel a bit guilty with all her cooking and cleaning that I don't keep up as well as I do. She helps me stay in line though, and really, I like it for the most part!
My husband is still looking for work. Please pray for us that he finds something soon!
How is everyone today? I should say, in this early morning hour! Hee hee! It seems like this is when I end up blogging; when I am up with one of the little ones.
Oh we have had quite a week! My mother-in-law came up from Florida to visit! Her plane was supposed to arrive around 8:30pm but ended up being delayed until 9:45pm. It was so good to see her again! She always has so many interesting things to say. She has many stories to tell and we all are more than excited to hear every one! I love her enthusiasm!
We had a visit today from my sister and her husband and daughter. You see, my sister married my husband's younger brother!! Yes, my sister is also my sister-in-law! It's crazy! And another interesting thing about this is, my hubby and her hubby have the same BIRTHDAY but were born 7yrs apart! Is that crazy or what? It's kind of neat actually. So they came over to see "Nana". My kids were very happy to see them as well!
Today in the mail, I received a notice that I got a $1,000.00 scholarship! I'm very happy! It will help so much with our bills and it makes me proud that I was awarded it. I got this very same scholarship last year and is one of the biggest ones they give out! There will be an awards ceremony on March 8th where we get to meet the donors etc. I can't wait!
Tonight, it's the little girl of mine that is awake. She fell asleep at the dinner table, bless her heart! I had my 10yr old son take her back to her toddler bed and she slept until 11pm I think. I went to bed early because I had a feeling that she would wake. I was right!
Well, I've spent the last two nights sleeping on my 10yr old's bed so Nana can have our room to sleep and keep her stuff. It's been a bit rough getting used to a single bed and all but all in all it's not bad. My son likes it when I sleep in the room with him. He likes to cuddle still and that's just fine with me! I'll take as much as I can get!
Well, I guess that's all for now...just kind of rambling tonight. I hope all of you are having wonderful dreams!
Today is another day and all is well. I have one week of school under my belt for the semester and it looks as though it's going to be quite a lot of writing and reading. It's amazing the difference between the last time I was in school (1980's) and now. So much is dependent on the internet. It is so incorporated in every step of school! How amazing!!
I wanted to tell all of you, how proud I am of my husband! He has really stepped up to the plate this week and made my breakfast and coffee and got my meds. He even went so far as to get the kids up and going to school! Then, if that wasn't good enough...he began using his cpap(sleep apnea) machine while he sleeps!!!! I can't believe it! I've been hoping and praying for him to finally make the decision to get better and take action to make it happen! I worry so much about him and his heart and breathing! He's working on cutting back on his cigarettes as well. Bless his heart. I see that he is trying to turn a new leaf in life, and I'm excited! He is beginning to act like the man I fell in love with! Full of optimism and dreams! The Lord is working in wonderful and exciting ways in him. I shall continue to pray for my husband. He's got a long road ahead, but I'm certain the Lord has a special plan for him and he will go far!
I found out this week that my nephew is going into the navy this August. I think it will be good for him. He is in his senior year of high school and is struggling with some issues. I believe this could put him on a straight and steady course. I'll pray for him. My sister, therefore, is struggling with him and she, too, needs to be prayed for. I'll add her to my prayer list as well.
My oldest kid stayed over night in a hotel with his fellow basketball buddies this weekend. I can't wait to hear how things went. He is at his dad's house right now, but tonight he'll be home and I will ask him about it. He's getting so big so fast. Wow.
Yesterday my friend took my daughter for the day/night and my sister took my baby boy for the day. It was the first "break" hubby and I have had from the kiddos in I don't know how long! It was nice. We mostly rested and ate, talked and napped. But all without interruption. It was a little slice of heaven on earth. Funny thing is though...we were so happy to get baby boy back home that night. We missed him. As much as he drives us insane, he also is our delight!
My girlfriend called this morning and said my daughter had diarrhea in the night and it was all over her carpet. She says she'll have to get a new carpet. I feel bad. And my daughter, poor thing! My littlest has been having diarrhea and now her. Oh I hope they are not coming down with anything. Hubby and I have been feeling tummy troubles this weekend so I don't know. I will pray that we will continue with our good health.
This week, my husband's mother will be coming here from Florida to visit! We are very excited to see her. My husband has a close bond with her and I'm happy for him that he will have her close by to talk with and love. She is a wonderful lady and teaches me things each time she is here. I observe her cooking and always pick up pointers about that. She teaches me duty and honor as well. She will be sleeping in our room so she may have a room to herself while she is here. I know when I go to other people's houses to stay, I always feel in the way when I have to sleep in their livingroom. I hope she enjoys her stay. It is going to be cold though, so I hope she is able to deal well with that. I will pray that the Lord provides warmth and comfort for her.
Well, I think that's all for now, my fellow blogmates! Until next time! Dove
It's 4:08am in the stinking morning and I'm up with, who else? You guessed it, my littlest child! I told you he had his nights and days mixed up totally. With Christmas vacation and such, we didn't enforce any set bedtime, and look at the results! Of course, ever since little guy was born, he hasn't slept much....he just is too busy to bother with a little thing called SLEEP! Meanwhile, Mom and Dad are suffering the consequences!
So, here I sit, with a very awake 2yr old in my lap and a clock that is telling me I only have 2 more hours until I have to get ready for school. I can feel it's going to be a loooooong day.
Hubby is sleeping on the couch, which is not unusual due to his sleep apnea. He stayed up with the little guy after I went to bed at 11pm. I didn't shut the light off until 12am because I'm reading a motivational book.
I'm hoping to gain some insight into making changes that will bring growth and security to our lives. I've been thinking about the way we have been living our lives. I have always said it's more out of "survival" mode than "security" mode and I know that has to change. Everytime something of an upset comes along...we get out the proverbial "bandaid" and try to patch it up just enough to 'get by.' Well, like any type of deep wound, a bandaid just won't do. Sure, it will slow down what you see of the blood, but it doesn't stop the wound from bleeding. We have got to attack the source of our pain and begin working on the cause of the recurring wound, and not the topical quick fix. Does this make sense to you? It does to me. Now, just HOW to do this is where the hard part comes. Of course we would change if we knew exactly how or what we are doing, but alas it is most difficult to see these things from the inside looking out. I do know, however, that inaction and procrastination are our biggest enemies at this time. By not taking those first steps and risking the chance of getting wet, we are never going to get out of the rain!! I do know that if we avoid doing what we KNOW will bring us health and stability, we are responsible for our ills and sickness. At what point do we stop blaming our circumstance and start taking control of our lives again? Where is the line? When do we begin to face the music and allow God to sort out the details? I say that time is NOW!!! I have a strong desire to be able to provide a good home and comfortable means for our family. I'm tired of living in a small 3 bdrm apartment and making excuses why I don't have anything for my kids to take to school for lunch. I fear my children won't know how to handle money when they have it, since I am not setting a good example. I know when I get out of nursing school I will be able to provide better for my family, but until then, I wonder how I'll get through on a daily basis. Just having enough gas to get to my school and back is a challenge for us right now. Having just the basic emenities is proving to be quite a struggle. I want to get a job, but if I don't make enough at a job, it won't be worth me losing the assistance from the state only to have less money per month and working twice as much away from my family. I want/need to get my certification for nursing assistant so I can get hired at the place that I want to work. Unfortunately, I don't have the $100 necessary to even sign up to take the state certification exam!
Ok, time to take a breather from all this whining.....sigh. There, better.
So, tomorrow always comes, therefore we must trod ahead only looking back when it is absolutely necessary for moving forward. I know God is watching over us and has a plan. I know that the cure to our wounds is close at hand, if we just begin to attend to the source of our pain. No more bandaids, no quick fixes....no magical overnight pills....onlyhard work, dedication, and consistency.
Today was rather average I would say.. nothing terribly exciting. I had my second day of classes. It was Contemporary American Society and the teacher is very far to the left. I am somewhere in between but boy, I can see there will be lots of heated topics ahead!
I'm finding I am much more confident this semester. I suppose it has something to do with the fact that I got straight A's for the first time in my life last semester. Also, I'm growing comfortable with the routine and people. A lot of people have stopped to talk to me, and I with them. It's getting to be a family feeling.
Well, I guess that's all I'm going to contribute tonight. I really must get some reading done and some rest. Tomorrow then, Dove
It's Monday evening and all is alright. I had my first day back at school today. I got off to a rough start as my little toddlers decided that their schedule is officially backwards from the rest of societies. I didn't get to go to bed until 5:00am this morning because I let my husband sleep. When he's sleeping I hate to wake him (and it's nearly impossible because of his sleep apnea issues). Anyway...I fell asleep by 6-6:30am and asked my husband to wake me at 9:00am. When he woke me up I was soooooo groggy and hurting so much from my rheumatoid arthritis that I just couldn't even pull my head off the bed. So he let me sleep until 9:25am and I woke up with a start realizing that....I was supposed to leave the house by 9 but no later than 9:30!!! I was so tired I wasn't thinking....So I rushed and rushed to get ready....hubby made me coffee and got my pills out to take...then I asked him to get the cereal ready for me too. I kissed him good-bye and hustled the best I could out the door with a bad back and aching joints! I got down to our car and I had a car seat I had to give my friend in it. I start the car and noticed the windows were frosted over...I grumbled and put the defrost on high and prayed it would go away soon. As I was about to leave the parking lot, I realized my new school books were in my van...so I had to drive over there...tried the passenger door and it was locked...went to the driver door and unlocked and then the sliding door was frozen shut. So I had to climb into the back from the front and grab the books which slipped out of my crippled and cold arthritic hands all over the floor. After laughing at all this in disbelief...I pulled myself together and ran back to the car. By now it was a quarter to 10 and my school was 1hr away. My only class for the day was at 10:30 so I knew every moment counted.. I zoomed down the road realizing I forgot my cell phone..oh I'm so brilliant! That's ok though.....I've lived many years without one, I think I can handle a few hours! I got to school and as luck would have it I had to park way in Timbuktu! It is about -4 degrees out with a windchill around -14 as I head across the very long two parking lots I had to go through to actually get in the building! I walked into the classroom 15mins late and tried my best to slip in and listen. I found out that they are going to split the class up into two groups and so I signed up for the one that is 3hrs in one day! That's good for me because I would only have 4 days a week to go to school! No more Mondays! Hopefully that will all go through ok! After class I grabbed a cup of coffee and filled out the applications for the nursing ADN and PN programs and submitted them. After that was done, I went to the media center and got my picture taken and a new I.D. I lost my old one last semester somewhere! I drove to my friend's house and delivered the carseat. She had her little grandbabies over and was a bit distraught! Ok, a lot distraught! Their ages were 18mos and 8mos I think. They are quite a handful, I see. I stayed there and enjoyed two cups of coffee before returning home. I enjoyed the break. I think staying home these past 3 weeks or so was really getting to me. I love my husband and children, but sometimes...you just need time away. I came home tonight and although hubby had picked up a bit in the livingroom and hallway...he said he didn't do anything else because he's had a killer headache all day. I suggested he go to the doctor and he is rather dismayed at the thought as lately they don't do much for him. I asked if he wanted me to go to the store and get tylenol or something and he said nothing over the counter would help. I felt useless to him and he just sat there and stared at the tv until he decided to go lie down about the same time I needed a rest. I was hurting so bad because of the lack of sleep so the kids kept an eye on the little ones...bless their heart. When I got back up, I made dinner like I promised before I went down. I made goulash. I also did a few loads of dishes in the sink and madeHubby a new batch of sweet tea. I swept the floor and catered to the little one's needs (sippies/food) every two minutes. I tried waking hubby up to no avail for dinner. So I wrapped up his plate and put it in the fridge for later. I had the boys change the babies diapers and set up blankets and pillows on the floor for babies. Then I wrapped up both of their hands because one has a broken hand and the other has a strained wrist. Then I sent them off to bed. I played with the littlest one for a little while before he wound down and now I'm here. Phew, another day, another tale! Until tomorrow, Dove
Hello, my internet friends! Today is Sunday and the day before I begin my second semester of this school year. I'm taking "filler" courses this semester in preparation for my nursing courses this fall. Hopefully, I will get on the waiting list for the day classes in the fall. If I have to go to the night classes I will have to go yet another year. Since I have taken so many courses, I will only be part time after this semester for the next couple of years. I've already got my Anatomy and Physiology semesters out of the way. Also, Chemistry and Microbiology, Speech, Economics, and various Psychology and Sociology courses. Speaking of those type of courses, I thought I'd show you what classes I'm taking this semester: Contemporary American Society Abnormal Psychology Critical and Creative Thinking Developmental Psychology Yeah, I know....lots of thinking and brainwork eh? This will be the last of my "non-nursing" classes so I think I will try to enjoy them. Next fall is going to get rough. Did I mention that this semester I got straight A's? I have never had a report card with straight A's in my whole life!! I was very happy. One of the classes I took was a Certified Nursing Assistant course (CNA). I passed it with a 95% and all I have left is to take the state exam. I'm worried about it but want to get it over with soon. Unfortunately, you have to have $100 just to apply to get into a date to take the exam! I don't have that. In fact, I'll be surprised if I have enough money to pay for the gas to get the school and back this week! So, I already did the CPR/Emergency training last spring, I have the CNA class under my belt, and I took the competency test and passed....so the next thing is to get on the list by applying and paying $10 per application (I have 2). The list is the waiting list for the nursing program, and like I said, I hope I get on the day classes!!! Pray for me, will you? I think that's all for this time! I'm going to bed soon so I can be fresh for my first day back at school! Good night, Dove
Hello! Welcome to my first blog Tale! I'm unsure what to to say other than I am 36 years old and married with 4 wonderful children! I enjoy singing, writing poetry, dancing, chatting, word games, acting, playing with my children, and fishing!
I am in school to become a nurse and am about half way there!
Hope you come along with my on my journey through life on the "tale" of this dove!
